i am in my bed sipping a very strong alcoholic beverage at 2:30pm as my family is all at the beach. i really wish i could participate, but unfortunately in this case it would out me due to breast development from HRT. i made up some bullshit excuse to blow them off and they'll probably guilt trip me for it later, but it's like..... do you want to see my fucking tits??? that would be SO inappropriate???? like i have no choice but to just not go
i do gotta see everyone else swim and deal with heavily dysphoric feelings about my own inadequacy in my gender due to how early i am in transition :DDDDDD. nobody ever asks us (by us i mean trans people) or cares how we feel about stuff, they just want us to be on the same page as them and get upset when we are not.
best choice for me is just this. day drinking and typing into my stupid website nobody is ever gonna see.......
gahhh!!! it is vacation i should be happy!!! but this is just part of the experience of being born a trans person. oh well. this will pass. thankfully next week i have a vacation with my friend i am actually excited for.....