hello !

this is my first post ! this website is not up yet, but i am writing this on the first of july, 2024. i am leaving for a vacation tomorrow, and it is currently 11pm. mannnnn i got so much stuff i need to tell yall.... i guess the people reading this will be my friends (perhaps people in future generations too are reading this o_O... if thats the case, hello i am a pre-historic transgender speaking across generations via text! technology is amazing!)

a bit about me

i'm 20 when i am writing this; however i will be 21 soon. i am a student at a large university here in good ol' texas (hint, its the one with a dog mascot ;] ), where i have lived my whole life. i am entering my fourth year of my BS in computer science.

i am transgender. i have known this (or at least been questioning my gender) since shortly after turning 18 for sure. i will need to give this its whole blog post (there's a lot of lore okay), but i am basically currently transitioning with an off the books method (not illegal tho) behind my family's back. the term for this is a term i hate and refuse to use ("boymoder", just look it up lol, but if youre here you prob already know what that is :ppp ).

speaking of family, i was raised by catholic parents with two brothers, one older and one younger. i solely attended catholic school my entire life (apart from university), but i've been a non-believer since the age of 15.

so what is this site?

i dunno yet! i figure, since i don't generally do a good job with keeping journals consistently updated, a website may perhaps be more down my alley. my disatisfaction with a lot of social media (looking at you reddit and twitter), however, leads me to believe the best course of action for this is by just hosting my own site. with full control, i can say anything and u can do nothing but cope

i wanna escape tx at some point. i dunno what's next, but i'll make sure to update this page with stuff goin on in my life!!!!!1 maybe someone 100 years after my death is reading this and is excited to enter the world of a 21st century texan semi-closeted transsexual, idk. its def good for at least my own sake to write stuff down tho prob!!!

gahhhhhhh sorry that's a lot of yap. alright anyway ill basicaly use this site as like a journal probably, but we shall see what it turns into. anyway, thank u for reading this incoherent shitpost and i welcome you (unless you're someone who isnt supposed to see this, in which case, shoo)